Heart of Gaia

I sit upon the the threshold looking through the portal. This is the portal that I have named grief and loss. I did not enter into this portal willingly. I did not ever want to be here. I have however found myself here and it is here that I needed to stay for as long as I needed. I want to be done, yet grieving is never quite done. Instead, I decided I would be in the portal of grieving and mourning for as long as necessary. It was the only safe place, and the only right place.  The farther I go from January 2017, the farther I am from the last time I saw my youngest child on this side of the portal. It is now January 2020.  I now see through the portal.  I sat upon the threshold long enough, but am I ready to stand up and walk through? Is it time yet? As I sat, I wondered if it would all fall down upon me. Would I be crushed or swept away? Would I be battered and bruised by falling debris? This threshold seems so very precarious. I had come s...

Hello Fellow Travelers, The last day of January for 2020. Did this month feel like moving through mud? Did the time go by ever so slowly and methodically? For many of us, this was the experience. Whether or not the month's cycles and rhythms creaked along slowly or marched to a more lively beat, we have made it through the first month of this brand new decade. The medicine for this week is in regards to change. Slow, methodical change happens whether or not we determine it so. Whether or not you initiated change or change was thrust upon you, the process afterwards, when the change is implemented, is always slow and methodical. Look back to the first of January. Does it feel as if it was very long ago? What has changed since then? What were your worries or concerns on January 1? What were you celebrating and enjoying? What was your state of mind? State of heart? Where are you now with all of this? Slow methodical change happens and most of the time we don't notic...

Hello Fellow Travelers, January is almost complete. I have been introspective these last weeks. Into the New Year and this time of year opens up a most tender remembrance for me. Anniversaries of important events have a way of digging deep, causing introspection and reflection. Anniversaries are a way of marking time. Marking time can be a way to honor our human/spirit journey. Marking time can bring up memories to celebrate and memories of grief. Marking time is a part of our deepest ancestral roots. Life on this planet is full of the natural markings of time. Our bodies keep time with our cycles and rhythms of the physical systems that keep us alive. Our minds keep time because our bodies do. Our Soul keeps time as it coaxes us to turn inward during dark, cold months and turn towards the sunlight as it starts to return. We are inherent time-keepers, and a interconnected system that always seeks towards life enhancing experiences. Even in death, our physical systems ...

Step forward into the New Year and New Decade Hello Fellow Travelers, Into January we go. The energy for this week ahead is asking us a lot of questions. What do you want for this year ahead? Who do you want with you? Why do you want what you think you want? This week can get intense. We are in eclipse season and the emotional energy can be strong. Don't let the emotional intensity carry you away. Instead, let it gently guide you. Guide you to remember that you have a whole team of helpers, in spirit and in body who want to be your allies. Remember your team, your people, and the guardian spirits you were born with. Then, remember that you are tapping into your soul destiny during this year. Yes, the whole year is yours. No need to rush or hurry. The real new year starts in the spring. The winter is for retreating within, and gentle movement. Now, this year is a bit different, and we are all feeling the urgency. The urgency is a societal addiction mostly. All ...

Dearest Fellow Travelers, As this decade closes and the new one begins, I have been called by my ever persistent soul to share my gratitude and appreciation. As I wrote in my previous Energy Medicine Update blog, it is time to create space by reviewing the past decade. This is an incredibly difficult task for me, yet I stand here at the ready, with pen and computer at hand, with my candles and incense and carved out quiet time, to do what I recommend you all do. I always strive to walk the talk. Or shall I say, I don't ever ask you to do anything that I don't undertake to do myself. Even when, and most especially when I ask you to dig deep and imagine the wounds of many decades past, healed. Exploring within the quiet of one's own mind and home can be as treacherous and dangerous as exploring in the wilds of nature. Taking a trek upon the trails that for eons have called out to our souls for daring exploration is no more daring than the trek into the wilds of one'...

Hello Fellow Travelers, Energy Medicine Update for the last few days of December is here. It has been a bit difficult to wrangle in this energy. It has been difficult to sit still and listen, and that is exactly why this message needs to be heard. Here is why- We are collectively ready to complete a cycle of self-doubt and low self-worth. Growth is cyclical. We all grow, bloom, shed and release, only to do it all over again. The completion of this last decade is a shedding of that which is not useful in the next process we are entering into. We enter into this January 2020 with the Sun in Capricorn and the Moon eclipsing. What does this mean for us? We have the energy of the feminine and the masculine at play. The coming together, finally, of a new level of inner harmony and cooperation. In order for us to receive this energy, we create space. Big energy needs big space. Big space thrives in internal excavation. This new energy converges at our heart centers, beckoning us inw...

Solstice   Message Hello Fellow Travelers, Today marks the Solstice. Gather in the energy of celebration and gratitude, wherever you may be, or however you may be feeling ,and let it take you wherever you need to go. Our ancestors gathered, celebrated, shared, and called to them whatever they were needing most during this time. Do you feel it? Do you feel your ancestors alive within your bones? They call to you now. They are calling to you so that you may know their wisdom and use it to guide you along your path now. Let the ancient rituals of your ancestral heritage guide you during this time. You do not have to go too far back in your ancestral line to find the energy of winter magic. We all have roots that go back to the land, to Gaia. We all have been fed by her bounty and held in her warmth. We all have had to learn at some point, how to create from her body, so that we could be fed, nourished and carry on our lineages. We all have had to fight against ...